How I Invoke the ‘Speaker’ Layer of Consciousness
I ‘wrote’ this blog using my new dictation software. It is almost
like StarTrek. You just tell the computer to do what you want. I’m
looking forward to a time when I can lie in bed and say, “Computer,
what does (this word) mean? ...and what is the derivation, and give me
a couple of examples of early and contemporary usage while you’re at
it!”
In the meantime MacSpeech is working great and what follows is my
first blog using dictation rather than typing for the first draft...
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When I want to do some inner “work” on a particular issue in my life, these are the steps I take:
First I turn my gaze inward and identify my present sense of self.
No, actually the first thing I do is stop whatever else I’m doing and
take a couple of deep breaths - perhaps moving my eyes up towards the
ceiling as I turn my attention inward.
Once I have fixed my inward gaze on my own sense of self in the
present moment, I imagine a glowing pearl of awareness floating in
front of my forehead at my third eye.
Still breathing deeply, and on the out-breath, I move that pearl of
awareness directly into my brain, directly backwards into my brain so
it is superimposed over the pineal gland at the center of my skull.
Pausing here for a deep breath or two, and again on the out-breath,
I move the pearl of awareness deep, deep down into the warm, cozy
depths of the ocean of my body consciousness. At the same time I
visualize the glowing pearl moving down my spine; through my neck, down
through my shoulders, down, down straight down, until it comes to rest
at the level of my heart chakra (see illustration).
Once
it’s here in the heart chakra, the pearl of awareness pulses once and
expands to fill the entire cavity of my physical body (and then expands
beyond it) with warmth and acknowledgment and love and nurturing
support and gratitude and appreciation.
This energy then withdraws back into the pearl of awareness floating and glowing in my chest.
Then, again on the out breath, I visualize the pearl shooting up my
spine and bursting out through the top of my head like a rocket
escaping the gravity of the earth, and streaming through the emptiness
and freedom of deep space.
Eventually, as I rise through this vast gestalt of consciousness, I
begin to sense four slightly converging walls of an immense pyramid. I
zoom upward through this pyramid shape as millions of light-years flash
by, until I enter a 'space' that’s no longer connected to space and
time in the same way as before, and just at this point I exit through
the very, exact, molecular pin-point of the top of the pyramid...
And
“Boing!” we emerge into what I call the heroic dimension, where we have
absolutely unlimited capacities in terms of the physical focus because
we are in a layer of consciousness prior to duality and physical
manifestation. Here we are neither fish nor foul.
We are in a place where straddling contradictions is absolutely
necessary because from this perspective, nothing has quite decided
which way it’s going to come down, as it were. We can travel around
this realm with blinding speed something like those projectiles they
use in Quidditch in the Harry Potter novels. [note to self, google this...]
From within this dimension of my being, I can easily locate the
‘empty space’ I have been cultivating with the CMI practice group. Here
I am sitting in the midst of endless space filled to the brim with
distant galaxies. I have neither human body, nor any form of physical
expression, and can look down through many layers of time and space
until eventually I locate the Milky Way, and then our Solar System, and
finally the Earth floating in space. I can zoom right in to my
hometown, Toronto Canada, and see myself sitting here in my physical
body in my rooms on the Granby Estates.
Once I have activated my awareness in the heroic dimension in this
way, I return my attention to my everyday issues here in the physical,
splitting my attention between the two points of view. [This sounds complicated and difficult, but turns out to be quite easy and familiar in practice.]
Poised
in this delicate balance, I incant my personal trigger word, “inner
workshop”, and immediately find myself in my familiar workspace. I have
constructed this inner workshop for myself over the years, and often
visit to make some adjustments in my consciousness.
Immediately on entering the workshop, I am greeted by numerous aids
and assistants who lead me to a sort of half-reclining massage chair
with a wonderful headrest. From this position and with the assistance
of all the other me’s, [all the assistants look exactly like me except they have white lab coats on.]
Thus ensconced in my inner workshop, I access and activate all
manner of inner tools. These include everything from high-tech computer
screens that show whatever I am interested in. I can also type in
questions and get answers on the screen. [Now I’ve got this great dictating software, I may go to voice control for these guys... just a thought.]
First we address whatever the physical issue might be - this morning
it was tension in my neck and shoulders - so immediately some of the
attendant guys are massaging my neck and shoulders and applying
energetic devices that are very relaxing, healing and nurturing.
Meanwhile I am using various techniques to reveal and absorbe the
message and meaning behind the tension in my neck and shoulders. I
don’t want to miss the treasure buried in these symptoms you see, by
just deleting them without regard. So I open myself to the meaning of
the tension and appreciatively acknowledge it as enormously valuable
feedback about how I’m creating my realities these days here in this
physical dimension.
[All of reality could be thought of as reality-creation feedback,
or perhaps as the answer in three-dimensional terms, to whatever
questions we are asking ourselves currently.]
As
I engaged this process myself this morning I got the image of a lion.
Sort of like a medallion with the sculpture in high relief of a lion’s
face with open jaws. It was like a big ornamental relief sculpture and
it was rising up out of my chest and the feeling I got was a lion
rising up and trying to express itself and then coming back around not
having fulfilled that fully, and coming back around and then trying
again...
Once we have opened ourselves and tried to absorb as much of the
meaning as possible, then I start giving myself SMART suggestions about
how my body is feeling particularly vital and alive, and all the
muscles of my body are relaxed and comfortable, and in particular my
neck and spine, shoulders and back muscles are all loosie-goosie, and
flexible and liquid and flowing...
As I give myself these suggestions inwardly about how my body feels,
I naturally start focusing on my body here in this physical focus, and
my body starts to respond. In this case I found myself spontaneously
standing up straight, my shoulders dropped, my arms went out and I
could feel the energy flowing through my arms and hands, and then my
back flexes and curls. So as I’m giving myself the suggestions, I’m
acting them out with my body.
At this point I exit my workshop and go about whatever I was doing.
It has been my habit lately not to return altogether from the heroic
dimension once I have established myself there. It feels comfortable
for me to leave some of my awareness in that dimension, while the other
half, or more than half, is devoted to focusing on what I’m doing here.
[It turns out there are significant perceptual benefits from having a foot in each realm.]
In the heroic dimension I have access to primordial streams of
consciousness that make up the River of Meaning out of which ultimately
everything else is constructed. [In certain areas of consciousness
there are these huge rivers of energy coming together, think huge tree
trunks intertwining, only billions of them, and they are gigantic and
seem to go on forever... ]
Each of these currents of knowledge and consciousness contains the
primordial feeling/meaning tones and structures that are then
interpreted by us through all the myriad languages in between so they
become accessible to us in our focal awareness.
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In
addition to the Speaker layer within our consciousness, Kris has also
introduced the idea of Rahunas which are movements of energy we can
sense right here in our focal state of awareness, but with our inner
senses underneath our normal perceptions. Kris gives the analogy of a
pond. Once something emerges on the surface of the pond it has entered
our worldview, so to speak, and has been translated by our natural
processes into something we recognize.
Rahunas are movements of energy we can sense even in the normal
waking state of a focal awareness, that are primodial to this dimension
in that they have not yet been translated into an actual intuition or
feeling or observation or insight or whatever. [Just outside the periphery of our ordinary perception.]
The fact that they are only partially perceived means that they are
not yet limited by our preconceptions. They are only partially
expressed which means that they still contain the influences of, and
the gateways to, unformed and even inchoate constellations of meaning
and feeling that offer rich perceptual rewards.
Once we have identified the presence of these Rahunas, we switch our
attention to the heroic dimension where we have direct access to
foundational energy flows in their unformed state.
From this perspective we have access to the meaning and feelings
behind our focal experience in a much richer way because we can see and
understand the constantly shifting significance of these movements of
energy, while they still have all the fragile, subtle qualities and
fascinating inter-relationships that must, by necessity, be chopped off
to some degree when these energies resolve all their delicious
paradoxes and ambiguity, and emerge fully into physical manifestation. [you can't be black AND white here]
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So there it is, straight off the dictation software, cleaned up of course...
btw - I am finding that straddling these two states of
consciousness gives me a stance vis-à-vis my everyday life that is
spectacularly more expansive and meaningful than having all my
consciousness eggs in one basket, so to speak. For my money, this stuff
is actually starting to work!